Life threw me in situations that will test and challenge my strengths. I built my own armor using emotional tools to shield me. Soon it begin to change my views in life. For many years I dreamed to have a perfect heart, but people around me chained it little by little that I didnt even noticed.
My heart begins to beat slower and slower, and then its stopped. One day I woke up without even feeling anything. I dont feel pain anymore, happiness visit me once in a while but even happiness is somehow fearful to me.
But after all of these I stayed to believe that God is within me.